It is never what it looks like…

This post was written in December 2018!
My friends warned me: Don’t believe what he says! Of course I shouldn’t have, but I did. From his explaination of his relationship in front of the lawyers, to his story to our friends
about how he finaly met his soulmate and the grand finaly of his desire to marry her.
Everytime I will see him looking happy or hear his happily ever after story I would be sad, filled with anger because I didnt think he deserved to be happy when I was miserable.
No one around me believed he could be happy; after all he lost his family, his house and lot of his friends for a girl he slept with many moons ago.You
see Him knows me, he knows how to get me to react, he knows that although I am putting on a smile, I am hurt inside. But I never though he was a liar so I always believed everyhting
he said, somehow sometimes I still do. My friends told me he had to fake, he had to look like
he was still in control and life eventually would unreveal his lies . My best friend came over
one night and we had too much wine, he decided to start an online dating site profile for me,
he was on a quest to finding me a decent men. The morning after I opened my emails and
the site sent me his profile as daily match! I shouldn’t have felt happiness at that moment about him needed someone but I did. So did all my friends that saw it coming. This is a lot of personal details I am revealing but like all my post I am sharing what I
learned; no one can be 100% happy after a break up, and people that want to convince themself they are, will only take longer to ill. I lived my pain, cried more than I thought it was
humanly posible, reminisce about all our happy moments trying to find where we went wrong, and culpabilize myself for actions that weren’t mine. This is what you should not do. Lesson from this story; life isn’t always what it seems, maybe your ex will look like he or she has it all together and maybe they do but hapiness comes with time and honestly with ourselves. The
hard part is shifting our mindeset from wanted the hapiness of our partner to concentrate on
our own hapiness. I watched the movie The shack (which I recommend) and it helped me
understand that I wasn’t the one to decide what Him punishment should be for all the pain he
has caused, life will. I can only focus on what’s coming for me and the kids; and I can slowly
starts seeing that it will be amazing!
Blessing of the day; my friends that are still supporting me, dating site for opening my eyes
and myself for not giving up and keep on believing in real love.