The end or the beginning?

You know that perfect family you see in the movie? That was us; Him, me and the kiddos. It started as a fairy tale and although life had its up and down it was pretty happy overall. So the ”other life” Him was living was pretty shocking to me and that’s when it ended… or maybe started, only the future will tell us. You see when the person you love the most betray you you can react in many ways: you can scream, cry, attack, hide or go in solution mode. I went in solution mode: that night I drafted a childcare schedule, made a 8 weeks plan, and ask questions while staying super calm. I asked him what he wanted to do, he said separate and eventually divorce. I didn’t cry, well not in front of him. I don’t think I was grasping what was happening. This lasted for weeks. In no time I had a psychologist (for me and the kids), a lawyer, 30 job applications submitted, a support system in place and the school was informed of the situation. I can see how people may think: wow she didn’t care! I did care, I was a total mess for weeks. I was hoping the man I married would come back, but he was now a stranger. The first thing I discovered was that I was not alone. I felt like no one could understand me, all my friends are married and happy. But these same friends came to support me, they listened, they let me cry and repeat my story over and over again. I knew I had a lot of friends, but I never really understood how much they meant to me and how much I meant to them until this event. So if you are in a similiar situation, reach out to your friends. At some point they will tell you their advices, solutions, opinions and it is fine; you need their vision to take you out of your confuss and sad mind. Look around…. you are not alone 🙂